club momo
went down 2 club momo on wed. it wasn't too bad...like most other clubs...music wasn't all that haps but i do appreciate the concept of a live band room n an (though a bit small) al-fresco area. the crowd was pretty ok too...we ended up playing 5-10 and and its amazing how we can actually have so much fun jus doing that, it'd b better if the drinks weren't so watered down though... then went on the dance floor and for the first time with this gang of pple, i saw them dance...muahahaha....so i had fun, but what went on before and after were, not quite what i expected....
had arranged 2 have dinner with some of the gang mbrs b4 heading down 2 momo, but i screwed up the whole thing. so if u guys r reading this i'm really sorry. i expect myself 2 be late cos i rushed home 2 change first but didn't expect some of us to totally not turn up at all....
guess there was miscommunication....hee...
so anyway, reached home at around 3 pls...mum was waiting for me as usual and she went back to her old ways...i tot we had this conversation before???!!
this time she adds on that i'm getting addicted and how i'm a bad daughter and bad attitude at work...
well i had to explain all over again that the reason why i'm always home late is because we do things at night. i work in the day, i play at night...come home late. simple as that...
what set me thinking was, when she said i'm a lousy daughter...
i guess i agree that i'm hardly home to accompany my parents...cos i'm always out playing with some friend one way or another, whereas my brother is constantly home late cos he's at work.
it doesn't help that my eldest bro is away stationed in china...it's my "unspoken, social, family,commercial" responsibilty to be a good girl and stay home to accompany my parents.
plus...she even went to the extent of saying girls who stay out late and go clubbing are all bad!!!!
M-U-M !!!!!!!!!!!!!!??????????????
i'm not saying that everyone out there are good, kind, angels. i do understand that there are bad pple out there with a motive one way or another.
but, me going out late, hanging out with my frens, does not mean i'm turning bad.
and if anything at all i do not smoke nor steal...though of course i am no angel. SIGH...i expected better of her....
besides, i hardly club! what me and my friends do most is to do sports like badminton, bowling, ice skating, fly kite (this is on the waiting list), and mostly dinners and suppers...jus that we tend to do things late, so we wrap up late.
maybe me staying home would make her happier and reduce the number of white hairs on her head but would that make me happy?? on this note i realise that i am very selfish.
while my family are out making a living i only concern myself with my own enjoyment.
i want to be out with my friends, because i do enjoy their company and i feel that this is the time to have fun and play. but i can't seem to justify my enjoyment without making my parents worry. is it just my luck to have such worrisome parents or is it me, who's getting more and more rebellious? i know i shouldn't compare but why can't they trust me like the parents of my friends!?!? jus because i'm a girl? or rather i'm the only girl in the family?
i guess i shd be glad that my mum allows me to stay out late and club at all...but i really hate how she always says things to make me guilty!!!! like telling me how she can't sleep cos i'm not home, how i do not do enough house work and how she thinks i treat her like a maid...arrrggghhh!!!!!!!
am i really that bad??
i have considered moving out. this way i get my privacy, i can have all the late nights i want and i can have guiltless fun.
but then again. i know i'll miss my parents and i cannot face the day when i know my days of living with my parents or family is not eternal.
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so i had wanted to work half day yest. cos i couldn't wake up in the morn to get to work at 9.
but i couldn't get my manager. instead decided to go ikea with mum and accompany her for the day. dad's in china and wont be back till sat, which means mum's going to be alone when we all r out at work. we were talking by noon, after she gave me a blastful in the morning (as if the night b4 wasn't enough)...listen to her talk, and nag, and gossip...guess that's the only thing i can do for now...to jus be there n listen...
posted by pearlewurly @ 7/22/2005 09:23:00 am
